boosantai ;) | there's been a death.

My grandmother passed away last two days. My dad's mother. So, it turned out to be he's the leader of his siblings since he is the only male in the family and i know that is such a huge responsibility. I keep thinking what will happen next, in the future. Macam raya, are we going to go back to that house? Pfft. i don't know. The last time i attended the real deal of a funeral was 8 years back; my grandfather's. And i wasn't scared. But last two days..., pfft. takut! yayaya, baca Yasin and such were normal. biasa la semua tu. tapi bila bab mandikan, kafankan, tanamkan, ishhh. i went to the tanah perkuburan, i listened to the talkin and i have sleepless nights. 


yeah. I am a coward. Haish.


p.s : 3 deaths in this month alone. Huish. Ya, hidup memang singkat.

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