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I want  to sleep but I can't tonight. Not yet. I was asked by someone about love. My interpretations and perceptions of love from my point of view which i don't really have the answer yet since we all know that love is a subjective issue. It can be discussed but it can't be proven, i mean, the real meaning of it. No exact meaning and that makes my life miserable. Haha. Because me too, i don't know the real meaning and as for me, it is really difficult to relinquish between really like and love. And also crush and love. Or are they of the same thing? See, i get confused again.

The thing is, everyone wants to get married and have their own family. Like, who doesn't want to have your own husband/wife and children and be a happy family now, and always? Here comes all the problems then. I used to think, 10 years later than now ( okay fine tiru Tun M haha) I always think, like let's say i get married now, yes maybe i will be happy with my husband and etc etc but what will happened next? where will i stay? And can i take care of the things like how my mom did to us? Okay, yes i think i can do that but, but, but... you see, i have doubts in myself. I know i am capable of doing those but i guess the time did not arrived yet for me to move on to the next phase of my life.

I want to get married but i don't have any clue about that yet. I want my marriage to last until the last breath of mine. I don't want to have it half way; that will be very depressing and sad.

Because I believe marriage is the peak point where your direction of life changes. And I want it to be happy changes and not the other way round.

Love ♥
dyaJ