Convoluted

This thing had just crossed my mind.

I just realized that life is all about choices. No I realized about this dah lama cuma baru sekarang nak rasa. Maybe i'm getting mature as time passed by? Chewah. Naah. Back to the topic, you are what you choose; what to eat, where to go, what to do etc.

So when I decided to stop painting few years back because I think painting is a non-benefit activity for someone common like me, like i'm not an artist pun so why should I paint kan, and kalau paint pun bukannya cantik,and and and because I have those convoluted way of thinking, I lost another medium of self expression other than music. I couldn't explain things well and if I could pun it will be long-winded and complicated.  My paintings, those were some ordinary scenes or abstract shizz yang I sorang je fikir cantik. I miss them. Mana tah, I only have a few left with me.Haha that was so 7 years ago. Dah 7 years since my last artwork. And I regret that I stop doing it.

See, this is all about choices in life. You choose what you do in your life; what you eat, where you'd go, how you spend your money and such. The scary part was when you realized you'd chose wrongly and it affects you after that. And the worst part will be disappointment. Did you get what I mean?

I don't like to think of the past.

And i don't like peeking on the future too.

I need an escapism. Indonesia, here I come.

love♥

dyaJ