Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Being judged and shiz

No one really knows when I really sit down and do things seriously because most of the time, I do things and change places and talk and do other thing etc.
I am a multi-tasker. I could do 5 things in a time - reading, playing guitar, singing, watching videos and eat chips, well not simultaneously of course. I don't find that amusing at times because I tend to get tired easily and my feelings would worn out.

When I was in my Asasi year, my ex housemate wondered on how could I got DL when she didn't see me study most of the time. She even said I was having fun - went for movies, bowling, karaoke to her boyfriend and not studying yet I get good (not excellent) results. She said God is being unfair towards her when we got our MuET results where her results didn't manage to get her to B.Ed TESL. (Well basically, she did well in her field now, I really respect her for the determination she upholds)

I do things seriously most of the times in my head. I don't know. This doesn't seem organized to some people but I did it. I don't know and I ain't sure of the correct way, But you see, people work differently. For SPM, I studied late at nights. During my degree years, most nights, I stayed up. I was able to work part time as radio presenter and that was the hardest year I've experienced since I too made decision to backpack to Brunei when I was in my final year that time where assignments are jumbling and piling up like shiz I can't imagine. But I survived shit.

I work best at nights, so I work at nights.
Like late nights to early mornings.

Well actually I don't mind if people judge me, since I allowed them to see how I work. However, it is quite unfair for some people to do the judging all the times without trying to get to know why certain people work like this and not like others. I don't know, I rarely judge people and I don't even bother.

It's quite tiring to listen to comments either you see. So, yeah.
Like explaining here would make it any better.
But at least I feel a bit relieved to be able to let certain things out of mind.

Ferk, I don't fancy being serious. LOL


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