boosantai ;) | there's been a death.

My grandmother passed away last two days. My dad's mother. So, it turned out to be he's the leader of his siblings since he is the only male in the family and i know that is such a huge responsibility. I keep thinking what will happen next, in the future. Macam raya, are we going to go back to that house? Pfft. i don't know. The last time i attended the real deal of a funeral was 8 years back; my grandfather's. And i wasn't scared. But last two days..., pfft. takut! yayaya, baca Yasin and such were normal. biasa la semua tu. tapi bila bab mandikan, kafankan, tanamkan, ishhh. i went to the tanah perkuburan, i listened to the talkin and i have sleepless nights. 


yeah. I am a coward. Haish.


p.s : 3 deaths in this month alone. Huish. Ya, hidup memang singkat.

love ♥,

kekuatan.

  "siapa kuat sekarang? kau atau aku?"
*lawan macam gila. dua dua penat. sia-sia


kekuatan sebenar bukanlah boleh diukur dengan pergaduhan, pertempuran.


jangan kata you kuat  bila you menang lawan lengan dengan abang you.
jangan kata you kuat  bila you menang lumba basikal dengan anak sedara you.
jangan kata you kuat  bila you boleh habiskan makanan dengan cepat.


tapi you boleh kata you kuat bila


you sabar orang ejek you dan you biarkan sahaja padahal you sedih gila.*siap balik rumah hantuk2 kepala dekat dinding lagi.
you sabar bila you suka dekat orang tapi orang tu x pandang pun you.*dia siap tak sedar pun you baik dengan dia selama ini.
you sabar bila rupa rupanya orang yang baik sangat dengan you sebenarnya benci gila dengan you.*pastu konon konon innocent padahal jahat gilaaaa~
you sabar bila you dapat tahu orang kawan dengan you untuk mencapai sesuatu.*cis! biadap orang macam ni.


kawan kawan i semua kuat. *kuat makan kuat cakap kuat tido kuat jalan :D:D LOLOL


i tahu you.


you memang kuat. kan? gagah lagi. :)




p/s : kekuatan terletak pada kesabaran.


love  ♥,

and today.., | 02

you have to know this.

since i am too tired to wait for you,

i've made up my mind to just let you go.

even though i know and i realise that it may hurt me,

but i think it is better for me to hurt myself first before you hurt me more.

i guess it is enough for me to bleed internally because of you.

enough with the fight, enough with the rants and babbles.

because now i know you never appreciate me.

since you already have someone in your heart,

beneath your heart, within your heart,

filled up every space in your heart.

you just don't need me anymore.

you just don't need.

maybe it is my fault. my biggest fault.

and i've learnt from it.

i'll go away. far and far away.

good for me;

good for you.

selamat tinggal.

p/s : because i just realise it today.

i'll never be the same- 
if we ever meet again. if.
- katy perry ft timbaland.




love ♥

irony | 02

Mereka meragui wujudnya cinta yang sejati

tidak hati ini.

semenjak dari mula

ku yakin ada cinta

cinta lah yang memungkinkan segala~

Ku rela biar betapa perit pun tertusuk duri

Jalan berliku tiada bertepi

ku percaya tidak sia-sia aku diuji

demi cinta

tersembunyi hikmahnya, pasti.


ku percaya ada cinta .

p/s: pernah ada rasa ♥ ? tutup mata dan biarkan hati berbisik. ;)

love ♥,

baru dua hari dan saya dah rindukan kawan-kawan saya.



p/s: mana uols? :'|

love ♥,

and today..,

do i need to go straight to your face telling you what i feel right now?

because you never know.

you never ever will.

and today again, my shallow fragile heart whispered.

p/s: how could you be so heartless?

kau hancurkan aku dgn sikapmu,
tak sedarkah kau telah menyakitiku?
- cinta ini membunuhku by i-forget-who.


love ♥,

Kadang ku kuat setegap karang

kadang ku rapuh lemah 

liar merana

Maafkan aku bila hasrat ku keliru.

aku wanita biasa.

-kris dayanti.

love♥,

Its only me and my heart.
♥ ♥




p/s:
Happy Birthday Naim :)
Apa perasaan you umur dah puluh2? :D




love♥,

bukan aku.

setelah ku fahami

ku bukan yang terbaik

yang ada di hatimu

tak dapat ku sangsikan

ternyata dirinya lah

yang mengerti kamu

bukanlah diriku..

love ♥,

the other side.

Here i am once again

i'm torn into pieces

can't deny it, can't pretend

just thought you were the one

broken up deep inside

but

 you won't get to see

the tears i cry.

behind these hazel eyes-kelly clarkson.


love ♥,

Hahaha!
see. i've told u.
i memang pengalah terHEBAT kawan!
bagus.

 means that, i have to stop hoping now :)
that's the wise-est thing to do.

p/s : tawa dalam duka. dah lama x sesedih ini. tahniah dya.


ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya 
kekasih gelapku.


kekasih gelapku-ungu


love♥,

harapan

saya harap burung dan air akan kembali seperti asal.

i hope so.
i pray so.

love ♥,


p/s: melodramatic events are sometimes hilarious. motif!

apa rasanya,
tatkala apa yang dirancang, dimusnahkan dalam sekelip mata hingga membuatkan anggota tidak mampu lagi berusaha?

berguling2 mcm tenggiling :D Hahaha.



*BIG sigh~


p/s : semua orang tahu tenggiling tu apa kan? Ciriiiiii~LOL.
      

love ♥,

KENAPA CEPAT SANGAT MASA BERJALAN NII??

p/s: warghhhhhhhhhhh~
       marhanis, mintak sepit rambut? :) LOL

love ♥,

apa rasanya,
tatkala bergelak ketawa bersama teman teman di kala hati sedang lara menanggung pedihnya derita?

keseronokan berpanjangan  :D


p/s: The darkness in me~ CIRIIIIIIIIIII~~ Hahahaha


love ♥,

apa rasanya,
tatkala hidup harmoni selama ini mula diganggu perosak yg semakin hari semakin selalu menghampiri?

kebencian.

love ♥,

tibatiba : kalah

saya kurang suka bila saya kalah.
sebab itu lah saya akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak kalah.


tapi hari ni.
saya rasa saya dah kalah.
saya dah cakap kat momon yg saya dah kalah dah tadi.


yes, i rasa i dah kalah.
i dah x kuat dah.
momon ckp jgn kalah dya


tp i rasa i dh putus asa la momon.
i dah putus asa. cukuplah sampai kat sini je.
i mmg dah kalah.
kalah kalah kalah.

p/s: stop crying, dya loser! shit.


love ♥ ,

asdfghjkl

hey.

1. i don't like to be scolded.
2. i don't like to see my friend cry.
3. i dont like people to see i cry.
4. i will help you if you allow me to.
5. i am not really good in coaxing.but i'll try.
6. i don't like to lose my things.
7. i love my hair very much.
8. i like Madam Noy.hehe.
9. i used to draw sceneries before.

the best thing is,

i have my friends. my friends who love me too. yeay!
:)


love ♥,