Groahhh

Dah lama gila wey tak makan nasi kenduri yang kendurinya di host kan oleh saudara mara pakcik makcik untuk perkahwinan anak mereka. Haha. Siapa je yang tak suka weddings?

And so the last wedding hosted by my relatives was on 25th December 2010.

Aaaaa nak makan nasi kenduriiiiiiii. 

This was taken two years ago, meeh, bukan di rumah kenduri tapi entah celah rumah sapadia taktau. Haha.

I hope for more kenduris this year. Pleaseeee. Haha

love♥

dyaJ

When you have to put other masks and be someone else; life is all about drama.

The Infamous Story of Indera Kayangan was the title.

love ♥

dyaJ

3.45 a.m

" And we will be holding hands when we walk, climbing up the stairs or even crossing down the roads like what we used to do last times, when we were kiddies. Ingat tak masa kita nak replace pencil Nad yang you patahkan......"

                                                                            

Thank you for remembering the past, thank you for giving a call, at least i need it yesterday.

Everyone knows you're just so sweet.

love ♥

dyaJ

Penguin

So one day Hani shared a video on Facebook of Arms by the same singer, i started to listen to Christina's songs that i downloaded few weeks ago. Lovely and cute. I'm addicted to 'em.

Can you find the time
to let your lover love you
He only wants to show you,
the things he wants to learn too
The hardest parts you'll get through
And in the end you'll have your best friend

Love like this may come once
Baby it's fate like a soul mate
He's your penguin
Baby it's fate
Baby it's fate not luck.

Love ♥

dyaJ

Awesomeness just can't be that long; farewell will always come.

Assalamualaikum dan Hi.

Yes, so as scheduled, Farhana came to my house before we went to the 6th UiTM International Sports Fiesta (UiSF) 2011 on the 19th till 25th. And yes, i became the Liason Officer for my last 2 years team, Universitas Batam. Great to take care of them again after two years. Jumpa jumpa je kat pelabuhan terus lambai lambai. awwh. Good to know they still remember me. ;) Ewah.

Ho, ini masa nak hantar diorang balik. Two days ago. Kinda sad but i didn't shed tears kot *angkatkening. Padahal balik Shah Alam nangis kan.  Hahaha. Gotta go to Batam soon. I planned to go there since 2009. Nampak sangat this time around kena pergi. Cewah. 

Perkenalkan, ini Head of Delegation Universitas Batam, Pak Lagat. A very kind and nice man i should say. Yang bald tu TNC kita. I pun baru kenal. Pfft. Ignorant gila aku ni.

Meet these two budak propa, haha, tak ada lah, these two young men,with nicknames Nan and Dim, the badminton players. Both are younger than me with nice skills in badminton game. Thank God they won the 3rd placing in Men's double, they can actually beat Uni Trisakti but i guess they are too tired from the City Tour the night before; and Adnan was the winner for the Single game. (game? ah whatevs)

The whole team. Futsal, and badminton. Hilarious and funny men. Oh, the futsal team won the 2nd prize. Hebat team aku ni *bangga. hehehe. Some of the futsal players call me Kak Ros because i called two of them   Upin and Ipin. Haha. Cute enough these boys, i would not forget about them. ;)

Stulang Laut jetty. Where i watched them boarded on the ferry and departed to their hometown. Yes, this time i did shed few teardrops jugak lah, to see them waving their hand, byebye bagai. ;') I hate farewell.

The best thing about it is the relationship built. I just love the way it puts itself on the right place, on the right time. Good old friends, new friends. It was just awesome. 

Love ♥

dyaJ

Sukan semalam.

Yes, they had their Sports Day yesterday. 

Sweat and tears; great experience.

love♥

dyaJ

From red chair to dark hair.

Because today, you made my sit on my red chair alone. Again.

We aren't close. We rarely talk with each other. But we share glances. You stare at me when i look away. And i did the same thing too. Never i have any intention to have conversation with you.

But one day, i fell. From my chair because i was too eager to catch the butterflies. Too excited. Both my knees tore. And i cried. So loud no one would ever wanna sit beside me. But you. Later you gave me the butterflies you catch. And we share smiles.

We became close. You and your blue desk and me with my red chair. Things went fast. Seconds,minutes, hours, months and years. We grew up but we didn't give up. We still eat together, to walk and to play. And i know you are happy. as happy as me.

One time you met me, gave me a note and a kiss on the cheek. You said
 "Take care and be safe, i know you will be fine".

And you went away. Leaving me with my little red chair.

To be with someone with dark hair.

Esok hui.

Okay, so last few days, like i told you, my cousin got married with a woman (ewah, woman kann) okay, a lady from Negeri Sombilan, yang kaya dengan adat perpatih tuk putih. So we were like having fun la jugak, we went tu Istana Seri Menanti; the istana they said was built without nails etc etc. Tapi takut woooo, there were creepy feelings when i entered the Istana. Macam diperhatikan, really. That was the real Istana, they had once live in there for years then suddenly they converted it into a museum so dia macam scary sikit. Pfft. And the place I tell you, tremendous humongous, 4 storeys! Hah! Go and have a visit.

So, kahwin la cousinku itu. With my younger brother as the man of honour. ( eh, ye ke?) or the best man. So before we went to the rombongan mempelai or whatever they called it, we did some cam-whoring sessions ya. Ahaha. Macam hari raya pulaks dah.

Oh, no no. This was not the Istana you alls. Ini rumah jiran pengantin punya atoks.

Tapi bukan itu point dia sebenarnya. The point is that tomorrow, 10th December, is the date when the results will be out. and and, my bro's 17th birthday. So, dia macam takde feelings. Nak gembira ke nak biasa-biasa ke apa tak tahu la. Lol. 

p.s : Dah besar adek saya. 

5th UiSF 2010

Okay, yeah, again this year, i became Liason Officer for the 5th UiTM Sports Fiesta 2010, together with Cik Fana. :) and few friends; and this year we took care those 50 athletes from University of Ruhuna, Sri Lanka. 50 ye, 50. Hebat kannn?

New friends, old friends. Lots of things learnt. And yeah, we had fun.

Universitas Internasional Batam, Indonesia's guys.
Old friends did come back :)

Yoshan. He's a rugby player. Kinda tough kan? haha.

Setengah badminton, setengah rugby.

There's only a few. I didn't bring any camera so jawabnya gambar takdela banyak. Ni pun gambar tagged kat FB. :)

Kesimpulannya, selagi tak cuba, kita tak tahu. Sometimes, things are not like what we expected. I guess, if you don't know or try, you better don't say things. :) Seriously.

Love ♥,
DyaJ.

Memories never fade

Jiva and me went to the same school since our primary years until form 5. However, i think we get closer masa form 3. hurm, yes, form 3. Jivarani is a chindian (chinese+indian) girl and i think she is very cool, like me. Sebab tu boleh close. However, she's taller, noisier,more-talkative and cuter than me. Haha. She's good at drawing things. :) while I'm not.

Dulu dia bela arnab. Banyak pulak tu. So selalu kalau balik sekolah, mesti singgah sebentar bersama KitKat rumah dia untuk bermain bersama arnab yang besar itu. I forgot what it's name. Tapi seriously it was as big as cat. No, slightly bigger kot. I once had an intention to keep rabbit as my pet but my mom didn't allow me to, plus, we have cats. So macam tak boleh. Haha. Still, kami masih berkawan baik antara satu sama lain.

Oi arnab, apesal kamu lebih comel ha?

Dulu jugak I believe we were (okay, fine, I WAS) very naughty. I hid people's bag and pretended as if i know nothing. I talk loudly inside chemistry's classes because I don't understand what the practical teacher is talking in front and basically I will tell jiva who usually sat beside me in the lab about Eric Delko and Horatio Caine whom i adore sooooo much. This was before i started watching House. Haha.  Then, we also had this one activity called 'tukisan'; lukisan+tulisan. Haha, so we will usually tulis and tulis and hantar to one another. Hurm, yes, i still keep some of them. :)

Tukisan yang sebenar lebih cantik daripada ini . Haha.

So, bila dah habis Form 5, we went our separate ways. I went to PLKN, followed by her for the second batch back to back, 6 months. In PLKN, we barely contact each other, phone pun boleh guna time weekends je, plus service line, ya Rabbi punyalah susah nak dapat. Then,I went to Asasi Melaka and she continued her Form 6 after that, so, we become more separated. Now, I'm in Shah Alam and she's somewhere in Subang Jaya. Still we didn't meet up padahal dekat je kot. =_='

Unlike other friends at school, Jiva is the closest. I miss her. And our old times masa sekolah.
Though high school years are not my favourite, serious ni.  Hahaha.

ps : My high school years langsung tak macam High School Musical. HAHAHAHA


love &hearts

complilove

Adam :

Kenapa kau masih fikirkan dia? Sudahlah. Lupakan saja.

Deanne :

Mana mungkin? Apa kau fikir senang benar aku boleh lupakan dia? Aku sayang dia kau faham? Kau tak pernah mengerti. Walau kau yang sering menemani aku ternyata kau masih erghhhh. Kau tak tahu. 

Adam :

Kau masih akan sukakan dia? Mengarut. semua itu takkan berlaku. Dia tak mungkin sedar akan perasaan kau. Kau berangan! Kau mimpi!

Deanne :

Biar! Biar kan aku dengan perasaan aku. Kau tak sensitif. Kau tak memahami. Aku sayangkan dia. Biar dia tak tahu, biar dia tak sedar. Biar.Biar!

Adam :

Tapi kau yang merana. Kau yang terluka. Kau biarkan hati kau terluka tiap kali kau memendam rasa yang terbuku di dada. Kau akan mati kau tau? Mati akibat diri sendiri. Kau binasakan diri kau dengan rasa sayang yang tak pasti. Yang tiada siapa mengerti. 

Deanne :

Rasa sayang aku mungkin tidak berbalas namun aku masih terima. Ya, mungkin dia bukan yang aku cari, mungkin bukan dia yang akan mengerti dan bukan jua rasa yang sama akan kembali. Aku gembira melihat dia gembira. Biar aku menangis menelan segala duka. Biar aku terima kata nista. Biar, janji dia gembira. Hanya dia.

Adam :

Tapi kau sedih, menangis bila kau terluka. Bagitahu saja perasaan kau pada dia.

Deanne:

Tak mahu. Dia tak mungkin sukakan aku.

Adam :

Mana kau tahu?

Deanne :

Aku teka.

Adam :

Kau tau tak, aku rasa kau bodoh.

Deanne :

Aku tahu.

Adam :

Kau tau tak, aku rasa kau gila.

Deanne :

Aku tahu.

Adam :

Kau tahu tak, aku rasa kau buang masa.

Deanne :

Tahu.

Adam :

Kau tau tak? Aku suka kau.

p.s :  Love is complicated. Kan?

****
I want to spend my lifetime loving you,
If that is all in life i ever do.
- Marc Anthony 

love ♥,

boosantai ;) | apiapi

Oleh sebab hidup ni sementara, jadi dia kena ada halangan. Kan? Orang panggil halangan ni dengan bermacam nama ; ujian, cabaran, tentangan, untuk terima benda itu secara positive. Ya, kena la terima dengan positive, sebab bila kita terima dengan positive baru la kita boleh build up patience. Kesabaran.

Kesabaran yang diuji dengan menggunakan helah licik manusia pelbagai ragam sebagai modus operandi sungguh menguji kesabaran manusia lain yang belum tentu lagi tahapnya.

Penyelesaiannya, maaf.

 Senang kata dari buat.

Tapi lebih baik buat dari tak.

Sebab hidup dalam kebencian hanya mendatangkan faedah sementara. Macam tak payah nak tengok dia atau dengar suara dia atau hang out dngan dia atau call2 dengan dia. Tapi sampai bila? Dunia ni kecik, kalau hari ni kita tak suka jap lagi abang kita kenal dia, jumpa juga akhirnya.

Masalah timbul bila ada yang menciptanya. 

Api jangan dicurah dengan minyak.

Paling penting, jangan jadi api kalau tak mahu terpadam dengan sendiri dicurah air hujan ciptaan Ilahi.

 Kankankan?

p.s : internet punya pasal, entry ni terpaksa tulis dulu dekat MicrosoftWord.gila semangat!

p.s.s : 12volunteers yg naik boat Mavi Marmara *betul kan nama boat neh? will arrive at  KLIA 6am on Sunday. Watch ‘em at tv3 :)

haha with love ♥,

boosantai ;) | dulu kan,

Dulu kan, people always underestimated me. Kurang asam Bertuah betul. 


Dulu kan, actually kan, waktu PTS test yang lompat2 darjah tu kan, i dapat. I boleh lompat. kalau i lompat mesti i dah part04/05 sekarang. tapi i tak pegi sebab i tanak tapi semua orang tak tau. Sebab semua orang ingat i tak dapat. I tak layak dapat.  Pastu kan, orang kata i mengada. Budget best. I taktau pun orang kata macam tu. Dah besar2 baru tau.


Dulu jugak kan, ada ke, bila i tak dapat masuk mrsm or any other sbp sebab i taknak pegi sekolah asrama waktu form 01, diorang kata i tipu. i bukannya dapat straight As. tapi bila i tunjuk result, diorang tak kata apa. diorang diam je. 


Sama jugak la kesnya bila PMR. 


Lepas tu kan, bila i dapat asasi tesl, diorang pun masih tak percaya. diorang kata i ni bukannya layak pun dapat tesl. huwoh. Masalahnya, siap cerita pulak kat orang lain pasal i. i terkejut gila kot bila dengar macam tu. i tak percaya pun diorang yang berkata begitu. sebab i tau i tak buat apa2 pun dekat diorang. ish. dan diorang yang bercakap tu pun bukannya kenal i. tak rapat okay. Hish. ni yg nak menangis marah ni.


Waktu tu kan, i tak rasa apa2 pun. Pastu bila dah lama2 sikit. I terfikir. Motif mereka semua? Memang motif sangat. Sangat sangat dan sangat.


Sebab tu la kan, i tak berapa suka sangat compare markah dengan orang. Kalau you perasan kan, selalu kalau i dapat kertas test i ke apa, i akan cepat2 simpan. sebab i taknak orang tengok. tapi bila orang tanya nanti, baru la i jawab. I pun tak tau kenapa. Automatic responses. Dapat test papers, exam papers, on-going marks and such, mesti simpan, duduk diam2 or maybe jugak akan bagitau kawan-kawan yang rapat or yang sudi nak tau. Kalau tak, memang tak la.Lepas tu bila dah lama lama sikit, macam semua orang dah cooldown ke baru i tengok balik test papers tu semua. alone. :)


 Maybe ini kesan post-effect benda2 yang pernah berlaku dulu dulu kot. Boleh tahan jugakla patheticnye kan?


Tak sangka pulak ada post-effect. Ingatkan boleh cool je. sigh. 


Kenapa i cerita benda2 macam ni kat sini? 


Sebab i baru ternampak i punya fail akademik tadi.pffft. 
lagi satu sebab tahun ni adik i SPM so dia macam tibatiba terflashback time dulu2.Hahaha.


semua orang mungkin akan kata, lupakan kisah lalu, jangan diingat lagi, let bygones be bygones dan pelbagai lagi lah. Tapi orang itu mungkin terlupa bahawa kalau tak ingat yang dulu, kalau tak dikenang yang berlaku, benda yang sama mungkin berulang lagi, lagi dan lagi. Dan itu menyakitkan. 


Macam orang berlari, tersadung dan terjatuh hari ini, esok hari dia akan lebih berhati hati. kalau perlu, dia akan berjalan dan tidak berlari lagi. :)




p.s : Yela, takkan nak jatuh setiap hari kan? 

love ♥,

boosantai ;) | boyfriend

I have this one old friend. He's a boy. durh obviously. His name is AJ *eh, bukan ahmad junaidi ya. nama dia Ariff Johan. i think i called him Johan because if i called him Ariff kang his younger brother would perasan and thought i was calling him since nama adik dia pun ada Ariff kat depan tuh.. So, since we were at the same age, i always went to his school which is in front of my school. * see, ade ke letak all-girls school and all-boys school depan2? ;p to ease my mom so that she would be able to pick me and my adek lelaki at one shot. Oh besides that, we went to the same tuition class! Lah, that's how we knew each other. cheh.lupa. 


No, no. he wasn't my crush but he was one of the earliest male friends i ever had. Hahha. Because you know, i went to that holy, beautifully located all-girl school tu since i was Standard Two okay. urgh. AJ and I were happy during those days i think. i remembered we once played kejar2 di sekeliling pokok bunga kertas. He chased after me, while showing his broken leg. And i still think that was sweet ;) Until at the end of our Standard Six, somewhere near the UPSR where we promised to fight against each other, to see who amongst us will score 5As in UPSR. So, talked about this AJ, one day, when i was Standard Six, a bigger girl, came and approached me. *Primary and secondary school are next to each other. and asked, " Ni Nudiya Diva eh?" and left  after i said " Ha'ah" LOL! Motif wanita nih?


 I realised she was AJ's sis when i entered the secondary school. She's Form 5 when i was Form One. We barely talked to each other but in all-girl's school like mine, there's always a culture called 'kakak-adik angkat" thingy where other girls always thought that i was her adek angkat ; it is totally not true because i don't like the system anyway. However, with so much events happened during the whole year, i had once  went to AJ's house for Hari Raya. HAHA.


Oh, AJ and I never speak to each other when after we recieved our UPSR result where he got 4As 1B and Alhamdulillah i got straight As. I dont really know why. It maybe due to the age factor or anything. Whatever. We do met and bumped during these few years but Idk, we reacted cool as if we don't know each other. Maybe he doesn't recognised me anymore. 


Ohh, kitorang jugak satu sekolah agama rasanya. eh, ye ke? isk. tataulah.


Why did i write this?


Because I'm bored *ni punca utama nih! and in-purposely thought about him when suddenly i realised the pokok bunga kertas we played those days are still there, inside the school or maybe because when i'm bored i tend to think beyond my imagination where eventually i could think of things that I might have forgotten macam see, i baru teringat i ada kawan sekolah nama Hafiz, dia ketua darjah and I baru ingat dulu selain Fiffy, si kucing hitam yang meninggal digilis kereta, i juga ada kucing nama Keyko. ;D


Maybe jugak i tulis sebab i rindu kawan2 i :'D


isk. dya, dya.


p.s : masa kecik i slalu ingat kawan2 akan kekal smpai besar. rupa2 nya tak.








love ♥,

boosantai ;)

haish. semester break memanglah best. where we don't have to go for classes, no assignments and stuff like that. but unfortunately, having too much time doing nothing somehow could create a home-zombie like me. huarghh. i've been thinking to have part-time job. yeah, dekat pizza hut tu ada vacancy yet it's just a month to go. macam tak berbaloi je. isk what to do? what to do? reading? naah, the mood is yet to come. online? tapayah kata. dah nak rabun rasa mata menatap laptop :D. I had drawn things using oil pastel. and the outcome somehow is not that convincing. *h.o.d.o.h

uuh, okay,try again. buek. 

dan oleh kerana bosan yang terlampau, maka akan tercetuslah aktiviti seperti menyelak2 planner tahunan dan merenung ke arah doodles hasil kerja tangan manusia kreatif  yg seperti ini :

p.s : oi sem baru cepat la mai. tak sabar nak berlakon neh. drama queen~ wohohohohohohoooo. 

love ♥,

once upon a day~

"saya baru nak pegi jumpa awak"
" eh, knapa pulak? ada apa2 yg penting ke? "
"ada"
"apa?"
"awak ikut saya"


"saya nak bg awak semua ni"
di satu sudut, terhampar semuanya. .


"kenapa nak bg saya? saya dah bg awak, xperlu pulangkan."
"perlu. saya dah jumpa org lain yg lebih baik dr awak. org itu suruh sy pulangkan semua ini kepada awak"


ya, di hujung sana, ada org itu. seorang perempuan yg lebih baik.
saya berjalan ke arahnya.


dia berpaling bila saya senyum..


"tahniah sbb ternyata awak lebih baik dr saya. ambil lah semua barangan itu. xperlu pulangkan.. semoga bahagia"


dan saya pusing dan berjalan pulang.


aneh, saya tidak menangis.


p/s: dimana awak sekarang ya? 


love,