Juggle.

As what we've been told in the previous class, we should not let ourselves walking in daze. I hope you get what I meant. We have to know how to carry ourselves in whatever situation and location and things after that wouldn't create any problem, at least I think so. Wait, I keep hearing screaming from the faculty tonight. It's nearly midnight now. Too bad, Mon heard the same thing too. So it's reality not illusion, imagination or allusion. Heh. Okay, continue. Anyways, I believe courtesy plays a great role in life, since we were entangled in this culture and traditional life, though some of us believe we should be more relaxed and free, some things have to be considered too. Like when you want to use people stuff, you asked the permission from the owner, right? I suppose so. Oh I heard another screaming, again. I hope I'll sleep soundly as a polar bear tonight. I realized I can't sleep yet. Assignments are piling, you see. Sigh. Oh back to the topic, It's hard for me to explain. Or maybe I am too lazy to explain. Or maybe I'm not in the mood of explaining things I couldn't find the solution, no it's not as easy as ABC, snap your finger zap and the thing disappears. This is more than that. This is about feelings and how people tell they stories to others.

I have things to cater tonight. Not too many but quite a few. But I'm already sleepy. Pfft.

Anyways, I've found, no Fana put a link on Twitter and I watched the video. It's about a Korean man who confessed her love to a Malay girl. Yes, the girl named Sophia is good in Korean too. I found it so sweet I nearly cry haha takdelah. But the thing, the confession, was so sweet and the girl gave the relationship a chance. I don't know what happened to them now but I found it sweet. I believe, they would have cute babies  if they were to get married. And their babies can speak in Malay, English and Korean and and to have that is fabulous and awesome. Sigh, I wish!

I hope I don't have to hear the screaming, again. It's kinda scared me. I am not a brave person, I have to confess. Damn. Let's just pray those came from naughty, annoying spoiled brats from Intec. Maybe they are having some camping or something at the field they used to play Frisbee in the evenings.

This is hard.

love ♥
dyaJ

Duit raya tahun ini sikit tahu?

Assalamualaikum dan hai. Selamat hari raya ke 5. 

Eid's teaser tak cukup empat. Angan angan tinggi sekali, kononnya nak buat epic entry sebelum raya. Pergilah mabuk. Pfft. 

Jadi, raya tahun ini biasa je, orang lain nak rasa meriah suka hati deorang, eh, haha. Sebab duit raya amat sikit. Jadi tak seronok walaupun makanan banyak.Ha saja kan nak warnakan duit raya warna merah biar satu dunia tahu duit raya tu penting kepada manusia yang bergelar student. So siaran tv pun bestlah jugak walaupun cerita Cinta Kolesterol tu asyik tayang je setiap kali duit hari raya dari dulu lagi. Nampak sangat nak menasihatkan orang ramai supaya tidak makan berlebihan di hari raya kalau tak nanti jadi gemuk macam Erra Fazira lepas tu lelaki yang kononnya handsome macam Yusry akan tak suka dia lepas tu dia akan bersenam sampai kurus lepas tu dump Yusry, hekeleh nampak sangat cerita tu mementingkan paras rupa bukan cinta dari hati yang tulus. Tapi mesti pengajaran tu tak sampai sebab orang pun malas nak tengok cerita yang asyik diulang ulang setiap kali raya. Pasanglah cerita yang adventure sikit, macam The Clash of the Titans ke, tak pun cerita Nang Nak. Ni tak, sikit sikit cerita Madu Empat, Mami Jarum lah apabenda lah. Nasib baik kadang kadang ada Tomok dengan Misha Omar nyanyi. So macam bolehhlahh -_-" Nasib baik esok malam ada The Voice so boleh lah tengok Adam Levine, eh tetiba. 

So oleh sebab duitraya tak berapa nak fefeeling sangat so gambar duitraya pun tak banyak yang ambil. Serious entah berapa ketul je yang ada. Tu pun sekerat sekerat. Haha. Nampak sangat camerawoman mogok duit raya sikit. LOL! Pictures below diambil semasa raya pertama. Enjoice lah gambar kita tiga beradik tanpa muka tu. Haha

Haa memang macam tu lah kan, turun lah walau 1000kg pun muka tu takda makna nak kurus.
Dahla ada jerawat seketul kat dagu. Pffft. Whatever. duitraya

Anyways hari ini sorang kawan sekolah i kahwin.Meriah lah bhai kahwin hari raya. Haha. Dapat suami raya di hari raya. Mesti dia dapat duit raya jugak. Damn, jelesnya. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAtakdelah.

love duitraya ♥
dyaJ

Jersey masa asasi, eh it rhymes tapi siapa peduli?

Benda yang paling tak best dalam dunia adalah bila barang kita hilang. And,

I LOST THIS JERSEY

*rage

T_T

Ralat.

So bear in mind,

People won't change unless they want to.

Jadi tak ada gunanya kalau semua orang bercakap. Biar seribu orang pun yang bagitahu perkara yang sama, kalau dia tak nak terima, tetap tak ada yang berubah. Biar seribu cara diguna, masih tak ada yang berbeza. Ralat kau tau bila kita dah mencuba tapi tak berhasil. Bosan lah macam ni.

love♥

dyaJ

  

Once upon a hair

This is few months ago, before she made the decision.

Then she decided to keep it short so she made it this way :

Okay lah kan, not bad, and not good either. So so. But when semester break starts, entah kenapa jadi semacam.

Ahh rambut, jangan nak jadi chibi maruko sangat lahhhhhhhhh!

p.s : Kasihan dirinya. Huhu T_T

love♥

dyaJ 

Ketakutan

Dan bila setiap kali Ramadhan, aku lah yang paling berani

Tak takut gelap, tak takut duniawi

Sebab semua imaginasi gelap aku hilang

Katanya dirantai sepanjang bulan, 

Tapi semalam aku tonton berita

Bunuh cekik kerat semua ada

Nampaknya dunia tak aman

Sekurang kurangnya makhluk halus tidak mencederakan kita

Aku takut dengan manusia.

Okay lampu berkelip kelip *nervous*

love♥

dyaJ

Separanoia

I started to realize that i don't really fancy the idea of spending the night(s) at someone else's house. Unless i have something important to do or it is my friends' rent house we're talking about. With this additional extra 4 months at home, i am so in love with the house i can't imagine i have to leave my petite room and sleep at a place of unknown.

First, i don't like to pack my things up. I hate to pick up the toothbrush la, shampoo la, bath foam and blablabla clothes, tudung bcgydubj. Banyak ko tau. Lappy is a must. Phone, chargers, purse womenstuffblablabla. It is annoying because i have to think what things i should bring and it takes a lot of time and i don't like to feel stress to know i did left something at home because i gesa gesa kemas benda. 

Second, I don't really like spending the night at people's place because i will feel awkward, not knowing what to do after i did something. Macam okay, dah makan, mandi pastu nak buat apa? Okay tolong menolong orang tua lepas tu? Lepas tu lepas tu? Bukak laptop main plant vs zombies dengan rasa bersalah. I hate this feelings.

Third, I feel insecure. Takut. Tidak selamat. For example, if my parents decided to spend the night at grandparents' house; usually ni time raya, i will be the most uncomfortable kid in the family. I can't sleep because i am afraid. This is basically due to the physical attributes that both houses had. Both grandparent's house are partially made up of wood. Setengah kayu setengah batu. So memang hampeh la aku nak tidoq dengan lenanya. Selalu tidur ayam dan dengar je keadaan sekeliling, seperti dengkuran saudara mara atau igauan dan tangisan anak kecil mereka. -_-

I know i have to fight these feelings away. I will, InsyaAllah

It's quite sometimes since i sleep at someone's house. But just now, when Abah told us that his uncle's son wedding is on Saturday and we have to sleep at Tok's house tomorrow's night,

I FEEL LIKE CRYING MY SOUL OUT. Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu T_T

love ♥

dyaJ

Hilang bisik, ini bersuara lantang.

Maaf tiada gambar di entri kali ini.


Warning : This is a serious post.


I rarely talked about politics because there's nothing i could comment because i don't really want to involve in it. Maybe i should not reacted that way sebab i am one of the latest generation kan, why should i ignore all these? This is about my country, tanah tumpah darahku and ignorance is not the solution. So, when these people are busy talking about these BERSIH shizz and stuff, i started to read things and try to at least get some updates. 


From my readings, i guess i started to know about this Dato' Ambiga. And dia adalah pendokong utama sistem pluralisme. What the flabber is pluralism, you may ask? Pluralism is  when a form of society in which the member of minority groups maintain their independent cultural traditions. 

Dia adalah bekas Presiden Majlis Peguam yang menerima memorandum Suruhanjaya Antara Agama (IFC) pd Ogos 2001. Not so long ago, huh. Okay, so sekarang mari kita lihat apa tuntutan IFC :


TUNTUTAN AMBIGA MELALUI IFC

1. Seseorang anak yang dilahirkan oleh ibu bapa Islam tidak seharusnya secara terus menjadi orang Islam.

2. Orang bukan Islam yang telah memeluk Islam hendaklah diberikan kebebasan untuk kembali ke agama asal mereka (murtad) dan tidak boleh... dikenakan tindakan undang-undang.

3. Sebarang kes pertukaran agama orang Islam kepada bukan Islam tidak sepatutnya dikendalikan oleh Mahkamah Syariah tetapi dikendalikan oleh Mahkamah Sivil.

4. Tidak perlu dicatatkan di dalam kad pengenalan seseorang Muslim bahawa ia beragama Islam.

5. Orang bukan Islam tidak perlu dikehendaki menganut Islam sekiranya ingin berkahwin dengan Orang Islam,Orang Islam hendaklah dibenarkan keluar daripada Islam (murtad) sekiranya ingin berkahwin dengan orang bukan Islam tanpa boleh dikenakan tindakan undang-undang.

6. Seseorang atau pasangan suami isteri yang menukar agamanya dengan memeluk Islam tidak patut diberikan hak penjagaan anak.

7. Orang yang bukan Islam yang mempunyai hubungan kekeluargaan dengan seorang yang memeluk Islam hendaklah diberikan hak menuntut harta pusakanya selepas kematiannya.

8. Kerajaan hendaklah menyediakan dana yang mencukupi untuk membina dan menyelenggara rumah-rumah ibadat orang bukan Islam sebagaimana kerajaan menyediakan dana yang serupa untuk masjid.

9. Orang bukan Islam hendaklah dibenarkan dan tidak boleh dihalang daripada menggunakan perkataan-perkataan suci Islam dalam percakapan dan sebagainya.

10. Bibel dalam Bahasa Malaysia dan Bahasa Indonesia sepatutnya dibenarkan untuk diedarkan kepada umum secara terbuka.

11. Pelajaran agama bukan Islam untuk penganut agama itu hendaklah diajar di semua sekolah.

12. Program-program berunsur Islam dalam bahasa ibunda sesuatu kaum hendaklah ditiadakan. Program dakwah agama lain selain Islam pula hendaklah dibenarkan untuk disiarkan dalam bahasa ibunda masing-masing.

13. Orang Islam yang membayar zakat tidak sepatutnya dikecualikan daripada membayar cukai pendapatan dan wang Hasil zakat sepatutnya digunakan juga untuk keperluan orang-orang bukan Islam.

14. Sepatutnya Islam tidak disebut sebagai pilihan pertama masyarakat Malaysia seperti dalam soal pakaian menutup aurat kepada pelajar sekolah.


Come on baby. Malaysia adalah negara yang majoritinya beragama Islam dan mengamalkan sistem perlembagaan. Agama Islam agama rasmi dan agama lain boleh diamalkan. We have churches, temples, everywhere in the country. Kita tak halang penduduk agama lain mengamalkan budaya dan amalan agama mereka, tetapi mengapa perlu ada yang menentang sebegini rupa terhadap agama kita? Ada orang kita pergi minta tuntutan supaya bayi yang dilahirkan oleh mereka yang bukan Islam disuruh menjadi Islam? Ada?


Okay, that is one thing. The next thing is dia pendokong utama demonstrasi Bersih. She created the Bersih thingy. What is this Bersih all about? Apa tuntutan dia?


Tuntutan BERSIH :


1. Membersihkan senarai pengundi
2. Memperbaharui sistem undi pos
3. Penggunaan dakwat kekal
4. Tempoh berkempen minimum 21 hari
5. Akses media yang adil dan telus
6. Kukuhkan institusi awam
7. Hentikan rasuah
8. Hentikan politik kotor


Sounds good. Cadangan yang menarik, mungkin selama ini apa yang dituntut sudah terlalu lama dipendam lantas menimbulkan rasa tidak puas hati di kalangan rakyat. Itu saya faham. Kerajaan mungkin ada salahnya, semua ada salahnya.Tetapi mengapa perlu demonstrasi? di jalanan? Mengapa Ambiga mengajak orang berkumpul dan berarak? Untuk apa? 


Jangan tanya apa negara bagi untuk kamu, tanya apa kamu dah bagi kat negara. Wang pinjaman diambil tetapi disuruh berkhidmat di tanah air tak mahu. Pinjaman pelajaran tidak dibayar. Subsidi dan semuanya kemudahan diberi.Malaysia bukan Thailand, dan jangan pernah jadikan ia seperti Thailand. Mengapa tidak berfikir? Mengapa tidak mengkaji sebelum melakukan tindakan? kenal siapa ketua kamu, kenal siapa pengikut kamu. Yang salah jangan diikut, yang benar ditegakkan. Ada cara atas semua permasalahan. Kenapa ini pulak jadinya wey? And those new generations, wake up la, stop being ignorant. It's our time now, y'know.


Pak Jib pun, do lah something. 


Bro, kalau lu tak suka, nanti bila undi lu pangkah la apa yang lu nak bro. Itu cara rakyat bersuara. 


Demokrasi, bukan demonstrasi.




love ♥
dyaJ

LingoLango

I blog-walked through strangers' blogs and read them if those are interesting before i stumbled upon a blog owned by a girl who's so in love with her boyfriend. Great, from what I've read, she's experiencing LDR, Long Distance Relationship ahem ahem from her latest post. Tapi, point dia di sini, i took few minutes to decipher her words. Yes, my hypothalamus is not in a good condition facing with words like these :

KORANG MSTI CLLU AN JMPE BF KORANG,DATE,MNJE2 CUME...AQ NK CM 2 KT LAM ECET JE LA...YLA MSING2 DOK JAO TRPKCE R CM NIE...

P AQ XKSAH PN CUME 2 ASL AN DIE STIE KT AQ....LW KORANG KN PNH KE JMPE LAKY YG SGGUP STIE,KORBAN MCE,WET CUME,TOK KORANG...DOK JAO P SGGUP WT CM 2,MSTI CCAH NK JMPE KN,...AQ MMG UNTUNG R DPT MOK AQ NIE...SAYANG R KO MOK CMPAI AQ MMPOS....

Ha, sebagai seorang pencinta bahasa khsusnya Bahasa Melayu, saya rasa kecewa melihat bait bait kata ditulis oleh anak bangsa generasi muda dengan sedemikian rupa. *wahwah. Haiyo! Tak faham wey tak faham.

Ecet for handset? Jenuh nak faham. Itu baru satu paragraph tau. I scrolled up and down, semuanya ditulis macam tu.

ps : Serious pening lepas baca. Mungkin otak juga sedang demam. Haha

pss : Tibatiba rasa kelas linguistics ke, syntax ke patut ada di semua institusi pengajian. Hambek.

Pity my brain. HAHA XD

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SamunKereta.

This morning,  my mom, she got back from sending my brother to school, pastu when she stopped the car before she tekan the remote of the gate, she saw a grey Waja like lalu. So okayla lalula sampai the end of the route. Then, the car u-turn and dropped a man. A very smart man wearing kemeja also in grey and slack with kasut hitam just like what boys usually wear on Mondays. Okay fine la, she wanted to tekan that remote, so she keluarkan her hand and that's the peak time where that bloody-shitty man rentap her hand, pushed her out from the car and flung.

Oh how i wish i could tell you what i feel right now. It's too sudden.
I was still sleeping then when my sister woke me up and said 'Mak jerit mintak tolong'
I jumped out from my bed, ha, amek kau berbaju tidur i went out of the house and see my mom crying at the end of the junction with few neighbours. I was like, 'Apa hal ni?' when my mom said someone, curi our car. Oh my. What the heck!

Few neighbours called me, one of them work as i-don't-know-what but she called the police since she works somewhere in the Pejabat Police then blablabla talked some more before took my bath and went to the Pejabat Polis, reporting and drawing the face of the penjenayah and such. and according to the police, that chinese man might carry a gun.

My dad is somewhere in Terengganu btw, attending some meetings. So there's only me, and baby. And my mom. And my just-got-back brother. He's angry. Very very angry.

My mom is not strong you know. She looks tough and sturdy but she's not, inside. she's as brittle as cookies.. We are like that. That is why i'm not even crying. Or weeping. Because I want to look strong. I told her we might get back her beloved car sooner or later so that she'll stop crying. I told her maybe Allah want to give us new car so that she'll laugh or at least smile. *Tapi tu pun macam tak menjadi sangat. She loves that car so much she doesn't even want to buy others when my dad offers her to, few months ago. I just pity her. She got luka luka and her hand macam tergeliat. Kesian my mom. Kesian her very very much. Nasib baik si baby tak ikut dia if not, i just can't think anymore.

I want to cry. I think i need to. But maybe later.
Semalam baru je i drive that car, today it's gone.

That's my dad and that's our car. 

p.s : Now, I'm weeping. Alone. I love that car too.

So sad, so,so sad.

Taubat Nasuha tajuk dia.

Okay, you kahwin, then bila you kahwin, you ada anak (yang bising,yang nakal dan lain lain adjektif), pastu you pulak garang, suka marah marah, dan ada affair dengan bos wanita you sendiri, lepas tu you dapat isteri yang baik, tak garang langsung, hormat you as a husband, langsung tak menyusahkan you and mengandung pulak tu. Then, blablabla isteri you dapat tahu you ada affair then dia macam okay, suka hati you lah bang oi, i redha la blablabla siap merelakan pastu one day bila bini you kena rompak, dan dia call you pastu you tak angkat pastu isteri you kena bunuh, bukan isteri you je malahan anak anak you jugak, kena bunuh dah la sebab you tak angkat phone sebab you tengah berfoya makan dekat Secret Recipe dengan affair you tu, you tayah la nak menangis macam you sayang gila kat diorang. Pergila berfoya. Ha! geram tahu!

***

If you are not ready to have noisy kids, to do all things that you don't have to do when you were single or maybe you think your life will get tougher and harder, i think you better think again of getting married. Please. Oh atau, katakanlah you ada affair lain, ha tak kisah la bos wanita ke, perempuan bimbo ke apa apa je lah, can you like, leave your wife and go get your girlfriend? Sedih berpisah tak sesadis sedih you buat perangai okay.

I don't want to have a husband who will have someone else behind my back, and hot-tempered and egoistic and blablablablabla. Because once i am your wife, i'm so gonna be a good one. believe me. And i want you to be a nice one too.

Oh my oh my.

p.s : Post-effect of watching tv3's drama. Sekian.


love ♥

KusiramKasih

Hanya aku tahu apa yang engkau tahu. Oh, tidak, mungkin beberapa orang lagi. Kau gembira, sayu, dan mungkin sedikit kecewa. Bercampur baur. Kasihan kau. Kenapa nak gembira pula? dan kenapa nak sayu atau kecewa? Kau ketawa tapi ketawa kau bersulam nada luka. Mata kau bersinar sinar bercerita; sinar yang kau cuba jadikan alas duka dan kecewa. Dari awal sudah ku bilang, tiada kejayaan di sebalik semua itu. Jangan salahkan sesiapa waima keadaan juga tidak berdosa; dan mungkin kau juga. Sudahlah. Kau memang pandai berpura. Tawa bila selepas itu aku dengar bunyi tangisan di balik selimut yg kau tutup di muka. Senyum dan kemudian kau paling ke jendela. 

Kau sedih sebenarnya. Kan?

Aku tahulah,

Kerana aku juga punya rasa.

p.s : Kau akan pulih. Berikan masa.


love♥

    i think i am sick; again.

love ♥

Urgh!

Tomorrow's Saturday.
Then, Sunday then Monday. On Sunday, I'll be like oh okay maseh boleh berumba rumba.
But surely on Monday, it'll be like wahhh! Phonetics assignments to be presented. Oh please jangan tak datang kelas wahai sahabat sekelas. Oh, asssignments. Pegila jaoh!


Syawal sebulan weyh. Hopefully, our lecturer's classmates' parents buat rumah terbuka aidilfitri so bolehla kami yang di perantauan *la sangat makan makanan dan minum minuman sampai kembung. Oh oh ohoi. No one would ever want to go back and go to classes like before. Urgh!




Kan bagus kalau ada kenderaan super laju yg hebat boleh terbang, so boleh tinggal je di rumah dan berulang pegi Shah Alam, tayah duduk umah sewa la, apa la. Ish.



Love ♥